sKRu~

Having scored a goal always makes your confidence flying high. Your feeling will say that you are not the loser in the corner.
You can then laugh and sing. Releasing the pressure you had earlier. Relief.

Let’s rewind a bit to see what happened before that goal. You are a striker with a task to score goals. You were being watched by your teammates, and your coach, and your fans, and your opponents, and your beautiful girlfriend, and your close friends, and your parents, and the referee of the game, and the commentators, and those people who always bullying you everyday, and God. Nonetheless, you were being extremely under pressure. At this stage, you would simply get nervous. But you had to be patient and believe that the chance would come.

And when the chance finally came, you must regard it as the only chance you would have throughout the entire game. A beautiful pass from your teammate let you face one on one with the goalkeeper. Please, remain calm! I repeat: CALM DOWN!!! All you have to do now is capitalizing this rare chance.
Remain focus to the result. You can play some foot-works a bit whenever you feel confident. But in the end, only the goal will be counted.

Now, let’s zoom out from that scene and zoom in into another scene in life. With running out of money, and uncertain career path, and debt collectors chasing after you, being unemployed doesn’t seem to be a wise option.
You are being watched by people around you, and your parents, and your beautiful girlfriend, and your close friends, and your haunting bad memories, and God. You are once again being extremely under pressure.

Similar to the football match, you have to had a strong belief that the good chance will come sooner or later. You have to be prepared and capitalize the chance. Always think about the result. In the end, only the result will be mattered. Maybe you are now nervous and feel insecure. But when the time comes, you can start to fly. Fly with confidence.

That day was very hot. I was sweating all over my body. I wasn’t in a good mood either. Everything I did seemed to go wrong. I was hoping that the day would be over, the sooner the better. Dammit.

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I kept on trying to stay alive, tried to forget how the weather almost killed me.

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After some time, I decided to save my rest-of-the-day life. Walking around my neigborhood while looking for ideas. Luckily I found a $5 bill on the pavement near a lamp post. Since nobody’s around, I took the money and went to buy some ice cream.

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As soon as I reached my house, I opened the plastic bag. I was surprised when I found not only one but two ice cream inside it. The shop attendant must’ve been mistakenly put two instead of one. How lucky I am!

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The minty chocolate chip ice cream was tasted soooo good. I sat down on a couch and enjoyed the ice cream. Halfway through, I noticed a piece of card inside the packaging. It was read: "Congratulations! You have won a trip to Hongkong!"

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The time I realized how I started the day with a bad mood, I felt that I couldn’t be luckier than that day. It seems that I have to went through all the disasters before I finally found happiness.

  E      
Shine your light oh
  A
Even so much brighter
  E
I can see now
  A
Everything so clearly

  E
My only candle
  A
Always be there for me
  E
No scares no worries
  A
As long as you are beside me

Chorus:
  B                              C#m
Now I can feel the breeze of a better brighter future
  B                                  D          E
This time I’m pretty sure that you really are the one

Boss A : "Can you help me negotiate the contract with Mr. Mann next week? You must’ve him sign the contract before Friday!"

Me      : "Yes, Sir!"

…..

Boss B : " I’ve put your schedule to fly to Jakarta to complete this project on next week! Please be prepared! Your flight will be early on Monday! Any problem with that?"

Me      : "No, Ma’am! Not at all!"

…..

Boss C : "Hey you! I see that you have more free time! So, I just assigned you to help our R&D division starting next week! Don’t reject this decision if you don’t want your pay being cut!"

Me      : "Yes Sir! No problem, Sir!"

…..

Just after I had my dinner, I opened the window and jumped down from my 20-storey apartment. "Let’s call it a daaaaaa…aayy!", I said.

Out of 24 hours, I’ll list down my very own Time Budgeting:

1. 6hrs : Things I need to do to keep my eyes open for the rest of the day
2. 4hrs : Things I am obliged to do, things that they say something about future importance, but of course i hate it as much
3. 3hrs : Things I need to do to keep me alive
4. 3hrs : Things I need to do to keep up my social life
5. 3hrs : Things I love to do
6. 2hrs : Things people expect me to do
7. 2hrs : Things suddenly done by the time I realize
8. 2hrs : Things I need to do as a civilized human being in 21st century

…

……

CRAP!!! It’s 25.. guess I need to trim a bit!

Oh, yes! Definitely 4hrs for point number 2 is too much, let’s make it 3hrs!!!

All settled and now I can move on with my life…

…

……

On a second thought, I think I need to add an extra hour to point no.5… and I will take it from point no.3…

Do you feel that you ARE exist?

Have you ever feel that you are NOT exist before?

What the HELL is existence anyway?

What exactly the DESCRIPTION of existence?

Those things that can be SENSED by humans?

Do you BELIEVE something exist even if you can NOT sense it?

Or it’s MERELY perception?

Things that are NOT sensible yet perceptible can be REGARDED exist?

Have you ever fall in LOVE?

People always IGNORE the theory when they are HAPPY about it.

The music of the phone ring fills the air

"Somebody please get the phone!!!" I shout

An alarm clock suddenly explodes

Never knew it was there before

Doorbell screams as I heavily open my left eye

Burying my head deeper in my pillow seems not helping much

Half crawl in the jungle of darkness, forget the phone

Opening the front door and found a little squirt

"Good Day, Sir! I see your house is not equipped with security alarm!"

"Maybe if you’re interested, I can fix them for you!"

"Guaranteed best quality and loudest alarm ever!"

"It can alert you even if you’re having a big party!"

……..

I eat the moron alive for less than 3 seconds and get back into my cave.